To Panama

When the sun sets, if we’re not in a harbor, we’re on a mission to get to one. Although the open ocean brings a blue world steeped in natural beauty, it’s also wearing. On day four, we ache. Gravity feels stronger out here, and our joints are begging for mercy. Our eyes lock, and we laugh at our misery. Why are we enduring this hardship? Rationing food and forsaking sleep is not for everybody.

Watching Michael perch atop the bimini to secure the main sail makes me ill at ease. I’m muttering a prayer when he leans over the nightingale to secure the failed bowsprit lashing with new Dyneema. He’s tethered to the boat, but if he should fall, could I retrieve him from the water?

I’ve put all my faith in Gerty and her big red asymmetrical spinnaker. The webbing at the head of her main sail tore earlier today, separating the sail from its halyard. Without the main, we’re dependent on our headsail. She’s steadfast, holding her course and surfing down 12 ft waves at up to 20 knots. I can’t blame the flying fish for wanting to hitch a ride. However, I could do without the one that leaped into our salon!

It makes me wonder what else is lurking under the water. Is there a great octopus that will reach from the dark sea and wrap its arms around my neck? My imagination runs wild during the night watch. I’m a shameful bundle of fear or maybe I’m a valiant seafarer because I’m here.

In the morning, birds swirl, letting us know that we’re close to land. We’ve forgotten our discomfort and fatigue because we’re focused on the whiring fishing rod. It’s a big one! A beautiful Mahi Mahi. I turn to fetch the gaff and glimpse a dolphin leaping in front of the bow. It takes my breath away.

“Jill!” Michael brings me back. “The gaff, please!”

I grab it and secure the Mahi while the dolphin swims away.

This Post Has 9 Comments

  1. Wow! Stay safe guys! Love reading your blog – have felt those same emotions! You really know how to put it into words. Keep writing – you are good! We are already on our way back to Canada, in North Carolina, missing the great blue water!

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  4. I am going with valiant seafarer(s)!! You guys are awesome. Love reading about your adventures (and love joining in them even more)! XO Lesley

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  6. Guys! Just saw Stacey prepping for Panama and heard of the incredible adventure you’re about to take through the Canal. I’m catching up through your blog now and just so thrilled for you and frankly, incredulous at the enormous undertaking. Sending hugs and support and huge thanks for your inspiration
    Xoxo Tina K

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    1. Hi there Tina,
      It’s so great to hear from you. Apologies for the delayed response. This is funny but I appreciate the ‘enormous undertaking’ comment because sometimes this adventure feels like that! I usually blog about the fun stuff only, thinking we’ll want to forget the rest. hahaha. Anyway, I hope you’re doing well and thanks again for reaching out. Regards to Alex and Sophie

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